healingindoses.co.uk

Hello and welcome to Healing In Doses. Everyone has experienced challenges in life, elements of loss, difficulties or hardship. What seems insignificant to one person can be a huge mountain for another. I am here to share my story, but I would also love to hear from you.

Growth and healing are a part of all of our worlds, to varying degrees. I hope my experiences and feelings can reach someone when they need to hear it. And I know there will be things you may tell me that I need to hear.

Who Am I

My name is Rose and I am a survivor of domestic abuse. I am in my late 40’s, and live in the South of England.

Whilst I have been living in relative freedom for more than five years, I am not really free. I still live in fear. My ex-husband remains a risk to my safety after two decades of emotional abuse, financial abuse and sexual violence. This is why I am only using a first name.

As a result of my abuse, I hid, living a life in the shadows. Emotional eating has been my way of coping with Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and anxiety. I have also over eaten as a way of making myself as unattractive as I can to another man. If anyone paid me a compliment, I instantly reached for the nearest fast-food to increase the weight gain. At times I have eaten until I am in so much pain I can’t move.

I lost myself in my marriage, and now, instead of finding myself, I have lost myself further.

The woman the other side of the mirror is a stranger.

Why I Started Healing in Doses

In February 2025 I finally decided to start Mounjaro as a way of losing weight. I have been following the experiences of several YouTubers taking Mounjaro. Due to safety risks, this is not a way I can use to share my experience. So, I decided to start this blog to track my journey to losing weight, and continued recovery from the abuse I experienced. Posting online will keep me focused and accountable. It’s not a diary that only I will see, that only I will know my progress or lack of progress.

Sadly, I am not alone in having experienced abuse. The second reason I decided to share my journey is in the hope it helps someone else feel less alone.

This will not be a perfect journey, but it will be a personal one as I discuss my experiences of:

• Losing weight with Mounjaro
• Healing after domestic abuse
• Living with anxiety and PTSD

I’m not a medical professional, I am simply someone trying to rebuild a life worth living, piece by piece. A survivor. A work in progress. Healing doesn’t happen all at once, neither does losing weight. Both happen in doses. Sometimes it is in a Kwik pen. Sometimes it is in finding courage to ask for help. Sometimes it is just giving yourself permission to stay in bed.

If you have found your way here, I would love to hear about your experiences. Whether that is with weight loss, domestic abuse, PTSD, anxiety or building a life you love. I would love to build this into a small community of support.

Support for Domestic Abuse in the UK

If you are currently experiencing domestic abuse, or if you have concerns about someone you love, you don’t have to face it alone. Please know there is support available to help you to get to a place of safety. I have included some resources for those in the UK below.

Being in an abusive relationship is frightening, disorienting, and lonely. It can be hard to admit to yourself, and you may think no one will believe you. I see you. I believe you. I want you to know you deserve to be loved, respected and free.

Links to UK based services

• Refuge – Advice, information and support for victims, survivors and those supporting them to get to safety.
• Victim Support – Information about the forms of abuse, where to get help, how to support victims/survivors.
• Women’s Aid – Information on the types of abuse and a survivors community.
• The Freedom Programme – Understanding domestic abuse including in person or online courses.
• National Centre for Domestic Violence – Advice for victims, including help to apply for an emergency court injunction, or signposting to alternate support.
• Surviving Economic Abuse – Support, advice and campaigning against financial abuse.
• Rape Crisis – Support and advice for anyone affected by sexual assault and rape.
• The Life Centre – Support and therapy after sexual violence.

I would like to make this a useful resource, so would love to hear your suggestions on other services, as well as services outside of Britain. What support did you find helpful?

Please add details of support services in the comments section below. Or, if you would like to stay anonymous, you can send me a message via the contact us firm below.

I will add new resources, and together we could build a list that might just save someone’s life.

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